X' Mas gift

He came into my life....

And made it a wonderful world to live in...

He made me feel so special with all that he does and all that he says....

I love you, Koeko

Thank you for all your love and everything you did for me..

Merry X'mas and Happy New Year to you now and till we are together forever.... 

Love Trip

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i have a dream

I have a dream.. a big dream. I feel i'm alive again. Being a crew life, better not to expect anything.We talked about it with the crew on my last Paris flight. We were about to take off and suddenly, we heard the announcement from the Captain saying that we needed to go back to the gate to check the aircraft engine. We didn't know what will happen to us either to have flight cancel or going back deadheading or we could be operate the flight .. 

You'll never know what will happen tomorrow. But, if you don't plan anything, you won't have any hope. If you don't have hope, you'll feel that life is meangingless.. You won't know where should you go next and what should you do. That's what i got to know after my depression days.

Now, i have a dream. I know what i want and what i'm doing. Actually, there are so many things that i need to do in my life. When i forget about these, i'm lost. I love my family. I need a life. And i'm gonna make that happen. Whenever i think about marriage, i get to know that i'm not ready 100% to be a mother. I"m so sure i could be a good wife. Sometimes, i feel like i want to go back to my childhood with the situation right now. For sure, not like the way i had. i don't wanna go back to my childhood life with the situation i had before. But, i want to create another perfect family life by myself with the family God has given .You won't understand  what i'm saying.. You won't know what i mean exactly. But, i wish you know.. ha ha.

I still want to act like a baby sometimes. Since i graduated, I was leading my life and my family as a big daughter and sister. I always feel like i'm the oldest one in the world. The mature one ever. Ha ha..

Finally, I'm not. I could be. But, i don't want to choose that way for now. So??? I will make sure i have a wonderful family life that God has been given me before i choose my own family life. It means, i will go back to my family after resigning, i will enjoy every single days with them. I will show them my respect, appreciation and my love. I want to stay with my parents and my lovely brother and sisters before i get married. That's my plan. For how long i don't know. It could be few months until few years. Don't know exactly. But, i will keep going day by day with Faith and another dream which is my own family life with my husband. 

I want a car now. And i want a video camera, a touch screen mobile, a professional canon Camera and my romantic own room where i will stay with my family. I will make sure i have it this year.  

Lord, My God , please help me to fulfil all my dreams that i plan for. I trust you lord. As long as you are with me, I'm fine. I love you. Please don't leave me alone. Please bless me, my family and my koeko now and forever. Lead me where to go, what to do. Guide me in your way. And let me be in your presence till we meet in the heaven. Forgive all my sins and have mercy on me. In the Jesus Name I pray. Amen.........

3 days off again

Well, unexpectedly i got a very relaxing days off in doha. I was thinking to visit my family in the beginning. For many reasons, i decided to stay in doha only.First day was terrible for me. I was so confused whether should i go back or not. I got the exit permit, ticket and everything. I was ready to go home. But, i called my mom and after hearing that my father was not back to yangon, i was so upset.I decided not to go back home anymore. Then, i took the pill and i slept till the next day afternoon.. Ha ha..

After i woke up, suddenly, i miss my batchmate that i haven't met her so long in qatar within 3 years. I called her and i got to know that she was in the process of resigning. I realized that God wanted me to do something in doha instead of going home for 2 days to see my family with a very rush way. I met Qing for lunch and i visited her for a while to chat. She is a cute and very straight forward girl. She did plan so- well before she resigns. She has been to so many countries, mostly every destinations where qatar airways flies to and she bought a lot of things before she resings. Good girl!

I met Mai and ma Shaung and ma Bu as well the next day. We had a lovely dinner with ma Ei too. It was a sociable days off for me. I was relax after my days off. And .... finally.... back to work again........as usual.

Anyway, thank you Lord for my 3 days off. It was God's plan for me to stay in doha and to let me learn something from my friends and make friendships during my days off. At least , i feel that i have a life. A living life.... God is good all the time. He is already planned everything for us in our past,  now and forever. We just need to follow Him in our every day lives.If there is a time for us, it will come to us anyway and anyhow. If not for you, even you try so hard, u will not gonna get it anyway. But remember, only if you summit your lives into His Hands...

All i wanna say is there is always God's plans for us. You just need to summit your every day lives to Him. Praise Him for your everyday life and follow what He wants you to do step by step, day by day. No worries for tomorrow. It's much easier way and  you will be blessed at the same time.

May God be with you and bless you All !!

Jan 1st to 6th, flying

Flying again after 4 days off.. I got Jarkata, Indonesia flight on Jan 1st to 3rd.. It was the painful moment ever. My emotional feelings were not ready to operate the flight after meeting koeko. I didn't want to fly anymore. I wanted to see koeko every morning and night and i wanted to change my life style with him. I was thinking to resign badly. I was crazy on my CGK layover. I brought my laptop to see koeko online. I couldn't smile at all during the flight. My senior was amazing. He was one of the best CSD ever. I did my job very well, but my mind was painful inside. I called my family and koeko with hotel landline phone and i paid for 50 US dollar almost. I was thinking to visit my family on my coming 3 days off to discuss with them about resigning.

I felt so sorry for my family. Definitely, they would be shocked of hearing about my resigning. I couldn't help myself to stop thinking about that. I was not in the mood to fly at all. I want a family life. I need love and caring. I felt like I became childish that need to be cared. Woo............

After Jarkata flight, I operated Bangkok flight. I met with ma lay lay. I spent a lot of money with her. I did facial cleaning at Hanako Tokyo,  Siam Square and I cut my hair. I paid for 1300 Bhat for that. I bought ARTY foundation make up and lipstick and I paid around 1500 Bhat. I bought some hair treatment and other necessary things for me and i did massage which is near by the hotel we stayed. I paid for 700 bhat for massage too. All in all, i spent more than 100 dollars. Anyway, i had a good time. I was happy that i spent money for myself.. I need that .. I need that.. And i will spend more... Ha ha ha

After BKK, flying to Kuwait. Just a very short and easy flight.

lovely 4 days off in KL

Finally, i met my love in KL. We had a lovely time. I was so excited to seeing him. I got relief when i reached the Kualalumpur International Airport. Surprisingly, more than 100 people were waiting to pass the Immigration. First time in my life to see that amount of people. I've been to so many countries for 4 years. So far, i haven't seen more than 100 people were waiting for the Immigration. Unbelievable!!!  I was standing there one hr and a half. Can u imagine? 

Anyway, all of my stress were gone when i met Koeko in KL Sentral. The first day, we stayed in the Nova Hotel and we paid for 177 ringits. I was not happy with the room at all. Next day, we moved to the Hotel Fortuna. We paid for 180 ringit and i was very much happy with that room. It was cool. I really had a good time with hotel Fortuna. we stayed there for 2 days. We didn't do anything special. We went out for dinner, movie and shopping. We talked and talked in the room. We really had a great time. I opened my mind to koeko until i got relief. He really cared me a lot. I love him so much. For sure, i will never find a guy like him anymore in my life. He is such a wonderful lover for me ever. Love you koeko. 

                                                           dinner with koeko

                                                what a lovely moment of us!!!!!!!!!

                                  love you koeko..hope to see you again soon!!!!......

                            one of the happiest times in my life.. thank you koeko!

                                         

                                                         

I need to relax

So tired of flying and to be alone. I don't know what i need and what i want anymore. Where is my family? Where is my love? Where is my friends? Nothing.. Nothing at all!


Always, i follow my roster. Flying to and there. Follow the procedures. Seeing different aircrafts and people. Sometimes, upset and sometimes, ok. Sometimes, stress and sometimes, relax. Sigh.. Tired of it already. But, what should i do next if i resign? Should i get the better job? I don't think so. This job is the best ever. But, the life is suck. May be only me.. I don't know. May be i don't know how to make fun, how to enjoy and how to work.. Don't know.. But, everyday i try my best. That's what i know. I'm trying to good to people and i do what i suppose to do. I follow the procedures. But, tired. I don't have life. I don't have relax.


Just came back from Frankfurt this morning. Going to the office to get the exit permit. Tired and tired. Don't know what to do when i reach home. I was lost. Preparing for the next flight again. One flight is over and another flight is coming. Stress again for the next flight. Slept for a while. Woke up to see ma cynthia and to send money home. All i'm working is for my Family.. I feel like that. I bought some clothes and foods for me for my daily use. All i save and sending is for my family. I'm saving money to buy a car for my family coz they want it and they need it. I don't know my future. Where should i live. What should i do. Don't know. Always in my mind , i'm thinking to call my family members to visit me in doha or to send them somewhere else that i have been. I've been to so many countries. So, i want them to feel that and at least some few countries i want them to visit. 

Some stupidity minded is always in my head. I apologize God again and again and I did that again and again. I couldn't make up my mind to overcome it. That's what i hate and that's what i want. Crazy. You know why? because i'm alone and i'm lonely. I got to know that when i was with my friends and family, i forgot that. I was happy and always have something to do. When i'm alone, i started thinking about so many things. I don't know what to do alone in my lonely room. I don't know who to talk? What to do.


Just wake up! having a tooth pain. So painful that i can't sleep at all. My tounge is burning with blister. Painful again. It's really painful and not convineient at all when i talk or eat something. I feel like my hairs need to be washed. But, it will take time when i wash and i dont' have time. I'm afraid i will get cold when i wash it as well. Mensaration is not coming yet. Don't know when it will come. I can't wash my hairs when it's coming and i will be so tired and pale again when it comes. Stress for that too. Tomorrow i have Algeries flight. It's layover. So, it should be OK. Hopefully will fly with nice crew and passengers. 


My face is so ugly. So many pimples coming up. God, my Lord. Pls help me. I'm lost. I know that i'm not lost , but i'm other way lost. I can't wait to reach my 4 days off to meet with koeko and to relax. But again same roster, flying life and normal routine duties will follow after that again. It will come, but it will finish soon and my tiring life will come again. SIGH>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>


Feel like wanna cry. But, don't know what to do. Anyone can help me to happy ? Even for a while is OK. Lord, You 're my God. I know that u won't leave me. Even i'm so sinful, i still love u and i'm yours. Please do whatever u want me to do . I"m ready to deny myself and my will and to follow you. Just remove all my human thinking minded and put all your plans and will inside me. Change my heart O Lord. Let me bless for you. And let me live only for you. I want to have meangingful life. But i don't know whether i'm meangingful or not.. Please forgive all my sins and lead me to your way Please. In Jesus Name I pray.. AMEN

Barcelona

Wow.. I got a very nice layover to Barcelona on May 7th, Sat. I just bid for it because it's one the the new destination that I haven't been yet. But, I didn't think that it gonna be a very nice layover with tourist attraction. By the grace of God, the thai CSD, Sittiwat was very nice. I've flown with him long time back when I was f1 flying as a f2 and he was CS at that time. He got promoted so fast as he got flying experience in his previous airline in Bangkok. He is quite young.

Unexpectedly, there was a 35 years old F1 galley operator crew from the Pakistan crew who got 2 children. I never thought that there will be that kind of mother working as a crew in the Qatar Airways like that. Compare with her, I'm still young. I have a lot of chances to do and I have a lot of opportunities in my life as i started my carrier early in such airline industry. Thank you Lord for letting me see myself that way. 

Anyway, i reached the Barcelona around 9am . The weather was cold and it was cloudy. But, i didn't change my mind to go out. We had a longer stay for 30 hrs in Barcelona. And it's my first time there. So, I should go out for sure right? 

Crew did appointment around 12 am local time to meet in the lobby. I prayed to God and I promised God not to commit the sinful thing that He hates to see me. And i need more blessings for my life and God's favour. So, I decided to promise God not to do the sinful thing again before that Barcelona flight and I asked Him to show me the Miracle blessings on that flight. Surprisingly, God did that. He blessed me and He showed me the miracle things and everything was so so so smooth. I was so happy for that.

I took the Barcelona City tour from the hotel with other 3 crew. We paid for 21 euro each. We had lunch across the Hotel with 5 f2 and 1 CS. I had a great time. After Lunch, me, CS and two other f2, we followed the Barcelona City tour for the sight seeing.....................

 We visited the Sagrada Familia Church and the Park Guell. The bus took us the whole city and we reached the main city around 7pm. One japanese crew wanted to walk around in the city street for shopping and dinner. I was so cold. I got nose running and a cold because of the weather. It was raining a little bit. Even i had my jacket, i was freezing. So, i decided to come back to the hotel with the other two crew. At the same time, Koeko was waiting for me online. So, my mind was driving me to the hotel to talk with koeko only. And all my 50 euro was gone..I even didn't have euro for my dinner.

I reached the hotel around 8pm and I was talking with koeko online. I got a cold that night. So, I took barmeton and i slept for 12 hrs until my wake up call in the afternoon. I was so happy walking around the Street , clicking pictures, having lunch with the crew. I didn't have that kind of layover for so long. Most of the time, i just stay in my room, sleeping and watching movie and having some noodle or bread that i brought. Thank you Lord for my lovely Barcelona flight. The crew were nice and the flight was peaceful. Above all, the layover was amazing!!

It's the Sagrada Familia church which is very famous in the Barcelona, Spain! They're still building it and we paid for 14.50 euro to go inside the church. 

See? how's amazing inside the church?

 this is inside the Park Guell

So tired la!!!

I just came back from Frankfurt yesterday morning and I had Islamabab, Pakistan flight at the same night. Just minimum rest. I had noodle soup and managed to sleep. I woke up around 6pm and prepared for the flight. Life as a cabin crew is quite tiring. Flying and resting , flying and resting. Nothing much.

When i reached the briefing, the CSD gave me R1 position. I was so sad when i heard that because i know that R1 gonna be so tired with cockpit, galley and the cabin again. Anyway, i didn't have choice. I talked to myself that " moohaypaw, you need to be strong, you have to strong.... come and rock again this flight with R1 position".  I just motivated myself, singing a song in my heart and working.

Actually, i didn't like the CSD that much in the beginning. She is Thai . Her name is Upa. She flew before with Japanese airline. She was tough, the way she talked in the briefing room. When we were on board, surprisingly, she was nice. She didn't bother us that much and she was working as well. Whenever i passed her the check, she kept saying "thank you". How lovely?

Another f1, berverly from Philippines was also nice. She was always asking me "what can i help you?" what can i do " . She helped me a lot. I really thank God that i had that kind of lovely crew on that flight. The captain and the first officer were ok. Not bad.. I had a smooth flight with nice crew even i was so tired.

My legs were so painful. I even couldn't walk. I didn't notice that much on board. I was standing for 7hrs. I just realize that when i reach home. As soon as i reach my room, i just sit on the floor with the uniform. I coudn't stand at all. And i wanna remove my uniforms, make up, everything at the same time . I couldn't wait to relax. I hate all these things that i put on . It makes me so heavy and stress.

I talked with day poe for 15 mins. I was relax. At least i had somebody to have fun with. Koeko was calling me and I felt better. I need to talk. I need to share my feelings. I've been flying with all these people that i don't know without talking about personal. I need some outlet.

Last but not least, Maldives flight again tonight. I just slept for 4 hrs for now. Need to sleep more.. Wish me all the best!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sick in Frankfurt

We landed to Frankfurt on time and I was ok during the flight. I was working in First Class cabin and there were just 2 customers in the front. The Morocan CSD, Najoua and R1, Sara were fine with me. We had a very nice and peaceful flight. I even didn't go and help Business Class because the CSD asked me to stay in First Class only.

One funny thing was the Arabic First Class customer finished almost one and a half bottle of White Wine, Savougion Blanc and he lost control during the flight. He wanted to go to the toilet so badly and he came to the galley with his belt opened. The toilet was occupied and he couldn't wait at all. You know what he did? He went back to his seat and pee inside the small bottle. I saw him standing in front of the seat and the way he was standing was so strange for me. So, I asked the another crew to check it for me and as i thought so, he just pee there in the cabin. Imagine? First Class customer pee in the First Class Cabin? First time in my life seeing that scene.

Anyway, long story short, I arrived Frankfurt safely again and as usual, i prepared myself to meet with hsu mon. I message her and i went to the airport. I was always late for any appointment in my life. But this time, i was early and waited her in the hotel bus stop for more than half an hour. I got a cold. My nose started running. Finally, i was sick. I had fever when i reached her parent's house. We were planning to stay at her flat. So, she took her stuffs from her parents' house and we moved to her place.

By the time i reached her place it was around 10pm. I checked my mail, listened to koeko's voicemail and we went to sleep around 1am. I was so sick. I had a fever even i took the medicine. My nose was totally blocked. I finished almost two packs of tissues for my nose. We woke up around 9am and we went to the main station to have the breakfast. We had some burger and french fries and i came back to the Airport. I was planning to buy some snacks in the supermarket. But, i couldn't find that when i reached the airport. I was working and searching around the airport. Finally I decided to go back to the hotel. I reached hotel around 11am and i took barmeton and para to sleep. I just slept and woke up until my wake up call. 

On the way back to the doha, i had to work in the economy as R2. Passenger load was just 93. I was sick and I didn't feel like working at all. I couldn't move myself that much and i didn't want to eat as well. I still had fever until i reach my accomodation. Sigh.. one more flight to go tonight to Islamabab, Paskistan. My pick up gonna be at 7:15pm and now it's 9:15am already. I'm not feeling well at all. I feel like i wanna rest for 2days.. Anyway, i better operate the flight than report sick.

Wish me all the best for my tonight flight!!!!!!